It has been a little while. I am not really sure what to write. A lot has been happening lately and I have been distracted with everything so I just pushed this site to the back burner for a while. I think I'll get back to working on it soon.
I want to write about the sun today. Or maybe not the sun itself, but my newfound/renewed appreciation for it. I have had a big issue lately which makes me unable to leave the house. This has changed my perspective a lot as I feel like I've been taking sunlight for granted for a long time. Getting so used to something that you don't notice how much you need it until it's gone. I have had to starting taking vitamin D supplements, and I'm constantly moody. Now when I do get the chance to go outside and feel the sun on my skin, it feels a lot more like a privilege or getting a dessert after dinner. It's more cherished, and reminds me of going to church. Something I haven't done since I was 6. Weird. Seeing other people is something I've taken for granted as well. On certain days, I could get the chance to sit in my backyard and feel the sunshine for a bit, but I still wouldn't have anyone to talk to. I used to be a very socially anxious person, and I still am, just a little bit, but I would rather take the stress of a social interaction over complete deprivation. It's possible I'm being sort of dramatic about my situation but I have a lot of restrictions set upon me so I can't even help myself. Even if this may not sound so bad, it does feel that way. So i guess this is me trying to ask that if anyone reads this they try to appreciate the nature around them, and the people they meet. I know that sounds corny lol
Testing to see if my code works properly lol. I want to work on my homepage but don't at the same time. Whenever I think about it I remember that I'm not a very creative person. I have no clue what the style should be. The other day at around 1 am I woke up and decided I needed fresh air. When I opened my backdoor a white bunny hopped away, out of the yard and into the woods.
So this is supposed to be my first blog post. I'll basically be treating this like an online diary. Somehow this feels more private than writing in a journal. Yet, I'm kind of weirded out by the fact that other people on the internet can see this and read it. I started this site like amonth ago since I was bored and had extremely bare minimum knowledge of html. Then I saw views on my neocities page, freaked out, and refused to do any more coding for a while. I've always been so private on the internet and never really have interacted with others that I didn't know irl. Though, I'm really excited to have somewhere to rant. Writing long tangents with a pen on paper hurts my wrist after a bit.